Britty Leigh

slow down

I have realized that I spend so much more time looking forward to and anticipating things that are to come than I do appreciating where I am today. I am going to work on that, I love my life, I need to breathe it all in, every last second.

California

My best friend and I are moving to California when I complete my undergrad work at Bethel. I will be attending Grad school somewhere there for psychology. Its funny to look at the chapters of your life, the paths taken and not taken, and where you end up. I think it is so funny that my plan all along was to go to grad school in California, but that plan was abandoned when I abandoned undergrad at ASU. I feel like I knew I would still end up there all along. Not here. Not Minnesota. Both Emma and I need adventure. Whether we end up loving or hating it there, it is one of those things that we NEED to do. We need to see the world, experience new surroundings, and meet new people. That is how you grow, stepping out of your comfort zone, doing something new.

I am so excited for the future, the unknown. There is something so exhilarating about taking a risk. It is something that every human craves but so many people avoid it because of fear. Everyone seeks “security”, but what is security really? Is it worth limiting yourself, your life, what COULD be? Absolutely not. Life is too short.

I am going to live my life, not fear it.

you are going to be okay, i promise

Last night I read a friends tumblr and saw the pain that this person was experiencing from a heartbreak from a first love. I felt compelled to respond to it from my experiences. I dont think this person knows that I even have a blog, but, should they come across this, I hope it is of some help…or that it helps you.

P.s. if you ever need to talk to anyone, i’m here. im a good listener :)

I have been here before, and will, more than likely, return here again at some point in my future. I have been hurt, broken, and torn apart before. I have felt and believed with my whole heart that I will never love again, but I was wrong.

I have proved to myself that the light at the end of the tunnel is not really the end after all, rather, it is one end among many others. Each experience is one road among the map of your life. Sure, there are accidents, detours, construction, and other things that you would rather avoid, but, ultimately, the light at the end has only continued to increase in its brightness as my journey persists onward.

I have fallen and gotten back up only to fall again, harder than before. But each scratch, bruise, and scar has molded me into the person I am, and continues to mold me into the person I am becoming.

I have heard time and time again that life and experiences are about finding yourself. I don’t believe this. You do not, one day, stumble upon yourself, “oh here I am, at last!”

Life is about taking each opportunity, experience, and lesson and using it to move forward, better than you were before, or, at least changed.

I don’t think I will ever “figure myself out”, and I don’t want to.

This life is a crazy journey, and I am loving the ride

This is me

Well hello bloggers. I’m not sure how many people will actually end up reading my blogs, but, I figured, why not? I will probably have a lot of very random posts, get used to it. I think ALOT about very abstract ideas and therefore my blog will not demonstrate linear thinking. i’m all over the place. Anywho, here we go. I’ll try and make this regular, but, the key word there is “try”

love

xoxo

~B